Steve Brust would like you to know about 4th Street Fantasy Convention, an intimate little con in Minneapolis.
Also, my short story "And the Deep Blue Sea" is available as of today as a podcast at StarShipSofa, read by Amy Sturgis. Which is pretty darn cool.
Progress notes for 2 April 2008
Chill:
New words: 669
Microsoft wordcount: 52622
Manuscript wordcount: 62000
Deadline: May 1
Mammalian assistance: snuggy cat. her favorite thing is when my lap and the sunbeam are colocated.
Reason for stopping: Intense frustration and brainlessness.
Man, this book is still not going well. I am stringing words together, but I'm not sure they make any sense, and the sentences certainly aren't. It feels like trying to write with brain damage. If it weren't for the fact that apparently everything else is working normally and I know I'm a hypochondriac, I swear I would suspect a micro-stroke, or possibly a tumor.
Gah. I am such a basket case about my writing right now anyway. I am toiling under a triple threat: one helping of post-Clarion syndrome, which has actualized my internal editor to the point where all I can see about what I'm writing is what the words aren't, one helping of trying to write a book that's so unripe, I think I would be better off trying to write it in 2009, and meanwhile, an extra-large helping of being deep in the throes of processing some sort of incipient skill jump that has made me incompetent to do things I used to do with ease, until the backbrain figures it out and frees up some processing power.
Now I know that the end result of this particular crisis will be me as a stronger writer (heck, maybe this is the final veil, and if I get through this, I will be a grown up writer and not a journeyman anymore) but trying to work through it is hard, hard, hard. And it hurts. And I wish I could just stop.
I think what I am going to do is take the rest of today off, give myself tomorrow off. This weekend is I-Con. And then I will start work on the page proofs for Ink & Steel. (Page proofs for the mass market paperback of A Companion to Wolves are also landing this week, and by the 18th I should have the ones for All the Windwracked Stars... at which point I will be at Penguicon.) After the page proofs, perhaps I will see if I have grown any story in my head.
(I even know what happens in these scenes. I just can't seem to write it at any level of competence above, oh, Fourth Grade. Gods, this is frustrating.)

Darling du jour: Hazel, he supposed the color was called--but tawny was the right word, for everything about her should be defined in terms of predators.
There's always one more quirk in the character: Tristen really, really does not want to tell me how Aefre got killed. I mean, I already know--I knew last book. But boy howdy he does not want to talk about it.
Today's words Word don't know: n/a
Words I'm Surprised Word Do Know: n/a
Sustenance: Steamed buns. Again. And a mango.
Mean Things: Family deaths. War crimes.
Other writing-related work: none
Exercise: none
Miles to Lothlorien: 245.8
Guitar practice: Just gonna go do that now. Or maybe I will have a nap first.
Mail: nomail
For those unfamiliar with it, the Fourth Street Fantasy Convention is a fairly small convention that ran during the 80s. It’s oriented toward, well, how to read and write better. Or, put another way, it’s a convention of people who like to read, write, and edit good books, and want there to be more good books to read, write, and edit.
We’re bringing it back.
I will be the Guest of Honor, and many other fun and wonderful people will be there.Also, my short story "And the Deep Blue Sea" is available as of today as a podcast at StarShipSofa, read by Amy Sturgis. Which is pretty darn cool.
Progress notes for 2 April 2008
Chill:
New words: 669
Microsoft wordcount: 52622
Manuscript wordcount: 62000
Deadline: May 1
Mammalian assistance: snuggy cat. her favorite thing is when my lap and the sunbeam are colocated.
Reason for stopping: Intense frustration and brainlessness.
Man, this book is still not going well. I am stringing words together, but I'm not sure they make any sense, and the sentences certainly aren't. It feels like trying to write with brain damage. If it weren't for the fact that apparently everything else is working normally and I know I'm a hypochondriac, I swear I would suspect a micro-stroke, or possibly a tumor.
Gah. I am such a basket case about my writing right now anyway. I am toiling under a triple threat: one helping of post-Clarion syndrome, which has actualized my internal editor to the point where all I can see about what I'm writing is what the words aren't, one helping of trying to write a book that's so unripe, I think I would be better off trying to write it in 2009, and meanwhile, an extra-large helping of being deep in the throes of processing some sort of incipient skill jump that has made me incompetent to do things I used to do with ease, until the backbrain figures it out and frees up some processing power.
Now I know that the end result of this particular crisis will be me as a stronger writer (heck, maybe this is the final veil, and if I get through this, I will be a grown up writer and not a journeyman anymore) but trying to work through it is hard, hard, hard. And it hurts. And I wish I could just stop.
I think what I am going to do is take the rest of today off, give myself tomorrow off. This weekend is I-Con. And then I will start work on the page proofs for Ink & Steel. (Page proofs for the mass market paperback of A Companion to Wolves are also landing this week, and by the 18th I should have the ones for All the Windwracked Stars... at which point I will be at Penguicon.) After the page proofs, perhaps I will see if I have grown any story in my head.
(I even know what happens in these scenes. I just can't seem to write it at any level of competence above, oh, Fourth Grade. Gods, this is frustrating.)
Darling du jour: Hazel, he supposed the color was called--but tawny was the right word, for everything about her should be defined in terms of predators.
There's always one more quirk in the character: Tristen really, really does not want to tell me how Aefre got killed. I mean, I already know--I knew last book. But boy howdy he does not want to talk about it.
Today's words Word don't know: n/a
Words I'm Surprised Word Do Know: n/a
Sustenance: Steamed buns. Again. And a mango.
Mean Things: Family deaths. War crimes.
Other writing-related work: none
Exercise: none
Miles to Lothlorien: 245.8
Guitar practice: Just gonna go do that now. Or maybe I will have a nap first.
Mail: nomail
- Mood:
unhappy - Music:Something on Radio Paradise? Sounds like Apocalyptica--too lazy to check

Comments
And I am emo and want to stay home and watch Criminal Minds. *g*
I may be more social this summer, however, if I can get my head sorted enough to actually be able to write.
Goth rollercoastering.
But not with the dreadfalls. I would hate to lose my goth hair on a coaster.
That's my favorite of the SF books. I am glad it's making you happy.
Maybe next year.
It's very frustrating.
I wish it would swallow.
I'm nowhere near at your level, but the novels I wrote last year came flying out of the fingers.
The latest one--yeesh. It drags, it does. As in ever since Christmas, it drags (okay, I'm writing around a day job and on spec, so I can't whine too loud).
It wants to be a frickin' saga, damn it.
I can't afford to write a frickin' saga at this stage of my career. I just--can't.
92K and counting. I kept chanting "only 20K to go" 20k ago.
I'm still chanting it.
Phooey.
Here. (offers a virtual Scotch).
To cranky backbrains!
Also. Need apricots, so that I can make apricot bread/soup.
Which you would be welcome to, if you weren't on the other side of the country. :)
I wrote the last book on Pure Stubborn and there don't seem to be any fumes left for this one, poor thing.
One. Damn. Word. At. A. Time.
Man, I hate writing like this.
I think this is when I cave and ask for an extension.
A long one.
Also: It's not a tumaaaah.
I suspect, though, that there are modern-day equivalents which are far healthier. Climbing walls (as you've already discovered), mountaintops, putting Tangerine Dream's Force Majeure on loop (the fourth time through you start seein' shit), or even just short-term rearrangements of your circadian rhythms.
Personally, I like tea. Strong black tea, brewed properly the Douglas Adams way, added to half-and-half (I'm a heathen) and honey. Allow to cool to room temperature, and chug in one go (makes the blood levels of various compounds spike). Make sure paper and pen are handy.
It's subjective and anecdotal, but I swear tea affects me very differently than coffee.
Problem is, until you reach a certain skill level (at least where I live), you're limited to six months out of the year. And if you have a day job...
(she schemes to find an excuse to go skiing this weekend after all!)
Must acquire black steep ice skiing skills. Then I can ski Palmer.
(reads rest of post - realizes the wallet is about to experience another Bear siphon...)
Things did perk up eventually, but then I was writing the equivalent of two books.
*hug*
P.
Yeah. It's really helpful, by the way, to hear that I am not the only one.
I mean seriously, I sit there and think "Is there an incipient aneurysm pressing on part of my brain? What is going on in there?"
And then I am called on to do editorial work on someone else's story, and all the mad skillz are RIGHT THERE where I left them.
Brain. Really. Get it together.
I hoped it would be helpful, and am glad that it was.
I know what you mean. I did seriously even look up various neurological problems to see if I had them. It's fortunate that I didn't have enough symptoms of any of them to really scare myself. But when your whole creative mechanism is lurching and creaking and slipping its gears, what are you to think?
It's good you have the sanity check of critiquing.
P.
While I do not doubt your wisdom in cutting this-- it's kinda, um, unsubtle-- I love it.
Love it.
I like it too.
Fourth Street Website
Hope the writing starts going better soon. Very much looking forward to Fourth Street (it was my favorite con back in the day).
Her solution was to deal with the 'skeezy' dog house the previous home owner had left behind.
Dealing in this case meaning to take a large hammer and beat the thing into a heap of scrap and then burn it.
Just a thought.
Several of us have considered setting up a business were we make skeezy dog houses for people to demolish with hammers, I think it has potential.
Oh my, that is pretty. I do hope you keep it.
Excitement.
~Heather~
Brust seriously rocks my world. I am even more sad now that I won't be able to make it out there. (I mean, honestly, Minneapolis is BFE if you live on one of the coasts, but I suppose that's a good thing for some writers...) (:
In other news... *Mmmmmm, steamed buns* *drools*