As someone who has met you in person a number of times, I do think you're awesome, and that's based on my interactions with you. That's not as scary nor as unique as it sounds. I have a cheering gallery of people who have known me in person for years and who all think I'm awesome...and I have no idea why. These cults of personality just seem to happen. Don't fret too much about them.
But I understand that the projected meme-persona of a celebrity can be scary. It's worse when you realize that after you die, that imagined persona is going to go on living and causing arguments (which they love to do, because they only exist when people are thinking about them.) The personas of Heinlein and Hemingway still kick up from time to time, to rouse their fans and freak out the mundanes. An author wants to get their persona tamed before they themselves shuffle off the coil, because after that the little beastie can ruin a good reputation.