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- while barney flies the hovercraft...
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- who's driving this thing?
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The book is not without its detractors; take it with however many grains of salt you like, but I found it a useful analysis (and an insightful statement about human nature).
I have wondered about PTSD sometimes, whether it will turn out to be several different things which are currently lumped together under one label. I was talking with my parents yesterday about the disaster at Aberfan. It happened three years before I was born, but a lot of the legal and investigatory activity culminated when I was three and so it was all over the news again for weeks. I was three and we didn't even have a telly, but that event had a huge impact on me. Mum says I slept in the bathroom where there was no window, for six months. In 1989 I was living in Santa Cruz when the Loma Prieta quake hit, and it's very difficult to even talk about with people who weren't there. But there's a shared element to those traumas which differentiates them from individual, private experiences. The former was part of the cultural zeitgeist of England in the 1960s. The latter was part of the cultural zeitgeist of California in the 1980s...but for me it is personal, and I find myself dismissive of the experience of people who were even 50 miles away.
But these huge experiences that affect whole communities and ripple out to extended communities seem to me to be fundamentally qualitatively different from individual traumas. They are not the same in their long-term effects as unshared traumas. My friend who went over a cliff and lay on a ledge with a broken back for six hours before he was found has a different damage than the friend whose house collapsed around her and was trapped for seven hours. Because - for better and worse - no-one shared his experience, and many shared hers.
It's also interesting to me to draw comparisons with chronic physical illness. I've had lung disease for 40+ years, and bone disease for nearly 20 years. It's amazing to me the kinds of conclusions people leap to about me when they know that. I'm not for instance, brave. I don't have choices about living with these conditions. I figure out how to mitigate their effects. Sometimes I make choices not to participate in activities because of the impact the activities will have. Sometimes I decide I want to do something anyway, even though by now I have a pretty good idea of the consequences. It's in no way admirable; my choices are circumscribed and I work around that as best I can.
Edited at 2012-08-06 03:07 pm (UTC)
I mean, yes, its done badly and cheaply a lot. But there's a lot of people with untreated, undiagnosed PTSD in this culture ... assuming we count the 1/6 to 1/3 of women who experience sexual assault and rape, plus all the child and domestic abuse survivors, then add the veterans of Vietnam, the Gulf, Bosnia/Kosovo, Iraq and Afghanistan ...
... that's a HUGE number of people experiencing a disability that still carries with it an enormous stigma.
Seems to me that presenting PTSD sufferers as heroic either because of or despite their disability is no better or worse than heroic portrayals of people with Aspergers or in wheelchairs or who grew up poor in Appalachia or any other thing that is a hard part of real life. Better, really in a way because it is so hidden, and so misunderstood ... and fiction might be the only way some sufferers would come into contact with a hint about what might be happening to them.
(Yes I have it too, so I don't mean to discount your experience, just to offer my own perspective)
*or being told by others
I specifically write at least one character who has been through tremendous trauma, and for whatever reason has not developed post-traumatic distress (compensations, yes, but those are clinically different) and there are readers who just will not believe that he's not reacting out of PTSD.
Because we see it both pathologized and glamorized, and treated as inevitable.
God knows I write enough stories about people with post-traumatic reactions. My issue is not with portrayals of PTSD. My issue is when it's treated as a charming character flaw that can be overcome by (a) true love or (b) just exerting your willpower.
That stuff is toxic.
But I said untreated PTSD.
Sorry, I know a bunch of people (read: men) who are being Proud and Lonely like a Prince of Amber about their experiences. I worry about their safety.
Having the military stigmatize people suffering from these illnesses doesn't help anything.
Do you really think an abused 8-year-old has access to PTSD treatment? Or that a twenty-something who hasn't managed to get beyond her denial does?
I'm afraid that your reaction here seems to me to be exactly the kind of mythologizing that I think the common media portrayals of PTSD encourage. And that "Proud and lonely, endure it" thing is *exactly* what I am talking about. That's what we're shown in the romanticized versions: "Oh, he's tormented by his tragic past, how heroic!" "Oh, she'll never get over her rape, how sad!"
People react in the way you describe in part because it's natural for somebody who's been badly injured to erect really powerful barriers, and in part because that's how we teach them they have to cope.
We need to let go of those comfortably tragic images of PTSD as a culture in order to help people who suffer from it deal with it.
Edited at 2012-08-07 04:17 pm (UTC)
Okay, whatever. I just know some veterans is all. If being concerned that they are hung up on their tough guy image and not getting the help they need is *mythologizing* PTSD to you, then ... gosh, hon, don't know what to say.
I don't think its *comfortably tragic* to be concerned about someone who is drinking too much, or driving too fast, or playing with guns or courting risks in other ways that is not MYTHOLOGICALLY dangerous but ACTUALLY dangerous and honestly, that kind of behavior is not even limited to men or to veterans ... oh honestly, really? You really think I read that in a book? Are you kidding me?
Please don't call me honey. My *boyfriend* doesn't get to call me honey.
As someone who has PTSD (along with a couple of other diagnoses) and as someone who is in the process of writing a thesis examining real world data to depictions of mental illness in YA speculative literature, I tend to struggle with how illnesses are depicted in popular literature and culture.
I've read too many books, where PTSD is ignored as in "And Everyone Lives Happily Ever After" even though there's just been a terrible war, then there are others where I've seen PTSD done cheaply or sort of romantically to enhance a character (although I've noticed this less than the first).
One of the reasons I love Mockingjay, and am using it as one of the three central texts to my thesis, is that it is a tad more gritty than most. I know people who don't like it for that reason. It might not be the best book on the face of the planet, but it shows much more of the reactions and grit especially how many different ways there are of reacting to horrible situations.
I've yet to see a text, however, in which the long term difficulties with friends, week long panic attacks, complete need to adjust to a different (and not quite accepted) lifestyle, or any of the other not so fun reactions are shown to the full extent.
I did find people's reactions to Mockingjay curious. Either: OMG they went through all that and now this is supposed to be their happy ending? or OMG why didn't it have a happy ending?
I liked that it didn't make anything uplifting about war, even a just and necessary war. It seemed right to me.
Anyway, about what you're saying about not having a lot of texts showing the less cool and fun bits ...
(I'm sorry, there's cool and fun bits? to whom? not getting it. okay we go on.)
... Judith Herman has this great text about how the recognition of PTSD or "battle fatigue" or "hysteria" or whatever we're calling it today is directly related to what society thinks of the Thing Causing the Illness.
Hysteria, for example, while a problematic diagnosis today, in the 19th century constituted this huge step forward because it insisted that people who had this illness were not possessed or spiritually afflicted ... and Herman posited that what made this explanation acceptable was that the whole of (French Fifth Republic? Can't keep the Republics straight) society was rejecting the authority of the church and embracing science and reason.
Meanwhile World War I vets were known to experience battle fatigue, but World War II vets were not supposed to admit it if they did. Then Vietnam came around and hey, look, battle fatigue is back, rechristened and repackaged. But this is because WWI = bad war, WWII = good war, Vietnam = bad war again. Now Iraq and Afghanistan = bad wars so we hear about PTSD again, but we heard darn little about Gulf War and Balkan vets. Meanwhile hysteria disappeared in the early 20th century, only to reappear (again rechristened) after the feminist movement in the 70s.
I think we don't get realistic portrayals of trauma because if you go there, then you have to go into where they all come from. And that gets into some realities nobody wants to look at too hard. This is all wrapped up in the Culture War and the fetishization of the traditional family IMHO.
I was trying to say not that there are fun bits, but rather that all too often people simply ignore the traumatic responses having life go on, in a normal fashion, to how things were before the events occurred.
I think I've read at least part of Judith Herman's work. I'll see if I can find it for a reread. I would agree that people don't include PTSD, or even lesser stress reactions, because people don't want to look dig into it. People don't want to write the gritty realities of war. I get that. I, however, think that when people do write traumatic experiences, they need to account for them in the form of some sort of stress reaction regardless of whether or not it's full blown PTSD.
There are the parts that make good comic book. Then there are the other parts.
I haven't gotten that far on my re-watch, so it may have come to suck in the meantime, but then? One of the best portrayals I'd seen.
I do have a certain guilty fondness for the unrealistic portrayals where someone comes in and fixes everything. Those provided a lot of comfort to me when I needed it (though friends don't understand how some of the more graphic of those can possibly be comfort reading), but they're so utterly unrealistic. I think it's important to have mythological and non-mythological portrayals.
They keep getting it right.
I find those portrayals intensely frustrating, by contrast--they make me feel as if I had just *tried harder* I could get better, you know? So the unrealistic expectation is bad for me.
The weird thing is, my current relationship *does* help. It doesn't *fix* things, but Scott's very good at interfering with my feedback loops.
For me as a young teen, the escapist fantasies were very important, and again as, oh, a college student with issues. Like all escapist fantasies, I knew it didn't work that way, but it helped me to be able to pretend for a bit.
Like all of *everything*, there's no universal response.
For what it's worth, I do agree with you that the heavy societal emphasis on the mythologized portrayals of PTSD has had consequences. A broader and more realistic range of experiences would be better: if all someone has is the mythology, they're less likely to really understand themselves or others, I think.