maybe i should cry for help
Well, I am declaring this thing a draft.
It's not by any means a good draft, but I've had the realization that I can't actually write the climactic three or four chapters of the novel until I go back and fix all the bits of things I need to fix in the earlier chapters of the draft, because it includes adding a lot of new material, and that material has a direct bearing on the emotional climax of the book.
I can't do that in the next four days, and I need some distance from the book right now anyway.
So currently, those chapters are represented by a reasonably detailed scene by scene outline. And about 100 unwritten pages of manuscript.
My drop dead date for the book is May 1; by then I will have fixed all this stuff and created a publishable manuscript.
Stories are hard.