You could go read them.
This strikes me really deeply. A lot of my programming tells me that the most dangerous thing I can do is want things, and that admitting to wanting them is tantamount to asking somebody to take them away from me.
So I've learned to not get attached.
It's a survival skill and a coping mechanism, and it works very well. I can navigate with very little loss of competence through exigencies that wreck a lot of other people. I'm good in a disaster.
But you know? There's a cost for that.