it's a great life, if you don't weaken (matociquala) wrote,
it's a great life, if you don't weaken

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that crushing, crashing, atom-smashing, white-hot thing... it's invincible.

375 words on SU stuff this morning, and now I really need to put my head down and get through some of this CEM. It's a busy week, and Wednesday is totally shot, which means I basically have today and tomorrow and Thursday morning to get this thing done.

I am trying very hard to relax, take some time off, and let the book grow a little bit before I try to harvest anything off it. So much of this game is headspace and play, and I have a tendency to forget that when I get into type-A mode, and try to jump on the project and get it finished when it's not ready yet. In real-world terms, it's like trying to build a drystone wall before you've gone out and found the stones to build it with. You wind up wandering around hopelessly with your hands on your hips, a lot, wondering why the wall isn't getting any bigger when you're working so hard on it.

You would think I would understand this better than I do. But of course, I have to relearn it every damned book, because I have (all together now) unrealistic expectations of myself.
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