ETA: So, I discover that I am suddenly very fond of this book again, when for a while I was quite dubious of its quality. I still wish I had been a better writer when I wrote it, but then again, one gets to be a better writer by writing.
Published books are very like adult children. They have lives of their own, and they go off and do and say things one never intended. All one can do is cross one's fingers and hope the balance of what they do in the world is good rather than harm.
This one swears alot, but I think on balance and from the perspective of years, it has a good heart.