it's a great life, if you don't weaken (matociquala) wrote,
it's a great life, if you don't weaken

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i'm tired of living and i'm scared of dying but there is nothing else

Tea today: two pots, one bancha and peppermint, one Stash White Christmas. It was a green tea with mint kind of day.
Teacup today: My mother's squid mug, which I liberated for moral support.

2012 02 02 Daily Commute 013

121750 / 120000 words. 101% done!

3000 words today, almost all of it devoted to going back and filling in stuff I had been waiting to have flashes of brilliance about. Well, the flashes of brilliance happened, and as a result I am at 100,000 MS words, 121750 manuscript words, and starting the process of being a bit overlength. Ahem.

This book has found a new and exciting way to be Zeno's Book. This one is coming up with stuff I have to go back and add to the middle to make the end make sense, and also to make the middle stronger and more interesting, and to set up stuff for Steles of the Sky, which is starting to shape up in my head with a vengeance.

Today I fell back in love with this book. It was a good boyfriend, the Ryan Gosling Meme of books. It was full of wonderful exciting ideas and cooperative and all like, "No honey, you go take a bath and I'll write this scene for you and then I'll rub your feet."

If only it could be like this all the time.

Sadly, this means that while I have achieved the contracted length, I have not actually gotten any closer to the end of the book, as the climax that I've been avoiding writing for three days is still just as unwritten.

There's nothing else left to do. And normally I can't write climaxes fast enough: they take off running downhill and eat my brain. This one is coy.

Well, tomorrow I will have to do that. And part of doing it means writing the second-most-awful thing in a world full of necromancers and authoritarian torture-states and hideous mutilating magic. You'd think I'd be raring to go.

words Word don't know: myrmecoleons, maned, strengthless, pincered, forwardmost 
words I'm surprised Word do know: hypostyle

tyop: there is one who would like to clam that role.

Darling: An edge of membrane opened her cheek. She saw red spatter but felt no hurt.

Evolution of an image:

He felt himself weeping, the sting of hot water on a wind-chilled face.


Hot tears slid down wind-chilled cheeks. He did not dash them away.


Hot tears stung on wind-chilled cheeks. He did not dash them away.

better still.

Hot tears greased wind-chilled cheeks. Temur let them burn.

Ah, there we are.

State of the Honeydew:

Revise "Faster Gun": January, 2012
OWW review: January 15, 2012
Interview Questions (2 sets): ASAP

Essay for TOR: February 7, 2012
Revise Shattered Pillars: February 15, 2012
Untitled Abby Irene stories: March 2012
New story for collection: March 2012
"Latency": March 2012
An Apprentice to Elves: June 1, 2012 with truepenny
Weird West story: June 1, 2012
Hard SF adventure story: June 1, 2012
Collaborative short with truepenny: July, 2012
Steles of the Sky : November 2012
"Underworld": September 2012

Epic ConFusion: January 20-22, Troy MI
Boskone: February 17-19, Boston MA
ConStellation: April 13-15, Lincoln NE (Guest of Honor)
KGB Reading (not mine): April 18, 2012 KGB bar, Manhattan
WisCon: May 25-28, Madison WI
4th Street Fantasy Conversation: June 21-24, Minneapolis MN
ConVergence: July 5-8, Minneapolis MN
Readercon: July 12-15, Burlington MA
Armadillocon: July 26-29, Austin TX
ChiCon: August 30-Sept 3, Chicago IL
Viable Paradise: October 5-14, Oak Bluffs MA
World Fantasy Convention: November 1-4, 2012, Toronto

"Dark Leader": March 2013
"Something's Gotta Eat T. rexes": September 2013

No fixed deadline:

"The Deeps of the Sky"
Karen Memory
Smile (unless its name is actually Salt Water)
Unsuitable Metal
Gotham Jazz

"Form & Void"
"Untitled Space Opera Thingy" aka "Periastron"
"Steel Monkey"
"Posthumous Jonson"
"The Death of Terrestrial Radio"
"On Safari in R'lyeh and Carcosa with Gun and Camera"
Tags: daily commute, eternal sky, honeydew, slide flat food under the door, with your draft or on it

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