Oh, it looks like I *will* be at Readercon for One! Day! Only!, July 8th. Yay!
Progress notes for 4 June 2006:
Patience & Fortitude
mugged me again. A certain character is discovering that sometimes one's self-image and one's sexuality don't match up as well as one would like. Growing up is hard.
It doesn't help that his girlfriend is half his age and infinitely more sexually experienced. So he's all OMG I'm a pervert! and she's like, sweetie, this is barely a kink. Breathe.
New Words: 892
Total Words: (actual / ms) 7,658 / 8,750
Reason for stopping: I should not be working on this book. I should be working on that book.
New Words: 1142
Total Words: (actual / ms) 56,921 / 65,500
Deadline: August 1
Words per day to meet deadline: 595
Reason for stopping: end of scene, need to think about next scene and read truepenny's chapter.
56,921 / 100,000
262 / 400
Stimulants: red zinger, assam
Mail: nomail. This is me not thinking about how soon Locus will get here so I can read the review of B&I. (Sources have already informed me that it's generally positive, but that the reviewer missed the fact that the book is set in 1997, so Peter Jennings is not dead, and your average New Yorker is not constantly aware of a threat of terrorism. (It had to be 1997, because a new moon on Halloween is a major plot point, and that was the last time that happened).) (This is, by the way, a classic example of the ways in which readers can think things that are meant to be hints are mistakes. And the subtler you are, the easier it is to fail to connect to a reader that way.)
Reviews, for me, are a funny thing. Because while actually writing the book, it's vital for me not to think about the critical response, not to dwell on the fact that people are going to be reading this somewhat kinky 25-page sex scene on the bus, that they're going to be judging me by the way my characters act and react to things. On the other hand, knowing the review is OUT THERE and not having gotten the chance to read it yet is a fairly serious burr under my saddle, so I have to be able to put it away and ignore it or it will be my entire focus until I do get to look at it. Like a splinter, you can't stop worrying at it.
It's like waiting for the grade on your final when you know it's going to make a difference in your letter grade. Only more so. Because once the book is in print, you don't get do-overs.
Today's words Word don't know: clusterfuck
Words I'm surprised Word do know: deadpanned
Mean Things:Gourami just found out about the end of the world as se knows it
Books in progress: Martin Cruz Smith, Stallion Gate; Jay Lake, The Trial of Flowers
Other writing-related work: Due mostly to conversations with truepenny and commodorified, I discovered that a five-thousand word sex scene that never made it into Whiskey and Water probably fits into Patience & Fortitude. So that was like, TWENTY BONUS PAGES OF WRITING!
Okay, it wasn't really. But hey, at least now everybody knows there's smut in P&F.
We're shocked. Shocked!
Also, off to crit a chapter.
Interesting tidbits: via ookpik, Bard College writer-in-residence program. For your delectation.
The glamour!: I decided to skip the laundry. Do it tomorrow. I need a day off once in a while.
Oh, those treacherous stars still glitter.
I will survive
Let my heart grow colder, and as bitter as a falcon in the dive.